Since There Was You And Me

I finally got in the studio with the Lambert twins and T. We recorded vocals for "Since There Was You And Me" which has to be one of the best songs I've ever written. Hearing the performance was magical. The four of us really brought out a deeper meaning than most pop love tunes. I know everyone says that, but with bittersweet lyrics and four voices speaking all of their own experiences in long lost love, I think we made something special.

The performance has me excited, but I'm feeling discouraged because I'm mixing this thing and doing an aweful job at it. I won't lie and says it sounds like crap, it sounds good, but does it sound like a senior recording major? Beyond that, am I messing up capturing the magic moments we had in the studio with this song? Last weekend when I was in Chicago I got reminded of the pros in recording and felt smaller than Stuart Little in Time's Square. Am I cutting it to do this as a profession? I'm stressing about this last year in school because I want more to show for it than some recording and music skills...I need to be ready for the pro realm because I know learning is going to be hard from here on out. I feel like I'm using school as a crutch and I don't know if I'll be able to stand on my own. There's this song and the lyrics always find a way to apply to me in times like these...this time it's this part:

"...I went to bed on top of the world
today the world's on top of me...
I'm trying my best, but it ain't good enough,
shunned by the world if I don't succeed,
because I ain't good enough,
But He still loves me."
-He Still Loves Me from "The Fighting Temptations"

So what am I going to do? I'm going to take a deep breath and pray...I'll get what I need to get done today and at the end of the day go to bed and get a good night's sleep. I'll wake up and do the same thing the next day and will continue that and have faith that God will do what He wants with me. I can't say how long that'll last, but I'm trying...I need to be patient in what He has for me...as well as realize I need to work for that too...okay...step one: deep breath...

g'night everyone, thanks for your prayers...
-Rod