Someone in Hollywood is becoming a star...

So it has been ages since I've lasted posted. I guess life is running and I'm running along. Lately I've been really thinking about my music. I don't know how to get it off the ground. It's like all the knowledge about the music business I learned I can apply to everyone but myself. It's weird because the minute I go into business mode it's hard move back to being creative and writing music.

I guess my situation isn't so unique, not only are there thousands of aspiring musicians/artists out there, there are millions of people aspiring to do what they actually want to do. It's the same plight that Charlie in the original "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory" had - he wanted it so bad, but the chances were near impossible and there was nothing he could do about it.

And it's not that I just want to be an OK artist playing dives forever, I want to be great. I want to be remembered for the art my life created. I guess a lot of people say that, but I don't want to be a fairly popular artist now that fades before history can be written. I know all things are temporary, but I want to at least leave a legacy.

I know some of my songs have really connected with a few hardcore fans, but will some teen in 50 years be going through their parents' old music to find "She's Running" and fall in love with it like their parents? I don't know.

So I guess while the American Idols are battling out in Hollywood, I gotta spend many more hours behind the piano perfecting my craft. God be with me, this music's gotta get out there...

Updates...

Life has been busy as usual...I just moved into a new apartment and so far it's great. Since college, I've really gotten into movies, especially art house and cult classics. Lately, I've been watching "Ferris Bueller's Day Off" and it's been taking me back to high school.

Call me a dork, but I've been kind of following the American Idol antics...I never did before in college (probably because there was even less time then and no cable in the dorms) but I'm really amazed at how that show really makes undiscovered talent stars. It's like music industry boot camp and those guys put in years of experience within a few months.

I've really been trying to buckle down on my own music and play more shows to work closer to performing/writing full-time. Right now I'm working on some music for myself as well as for a great artist (and also great friend) that is releasing her debut album internationally pretty soon. I hope something works out for either. I've been playing some coffee shops and bars up here, hopefully soon I will break into the festival circuit, but we'll see. I need to write more material. I was playing at Theo's in Jersey a week ago and was halfway through my set and said to the crowd, "You know, I'm a really happy person, but you wouldn't be able to tell from these songs..." I think the last batch of songs I wrote were from a different stage in my life and I was in a hard part of life then. Don't get me wrong, they're great songs, but they're very dark.

Margaret Cho is coming to Philly and I'm excited about that. Augustana is coming to Philly this weekend and I'm more excited about that. It's been forever since I've been able to hang out with Jared, Dan and Josiah...it'll be good times, and a great show.

I've been trying to get a hold of Dr. J, it's been a long time since I've talked to him. I really miss him. The biggest adjustment in moving on from college and moving to a different region of the U.S. is not having Dr. J around to guide me through things in life and just sit down and have coffee. Maybe I can make it down to GC sometime soon...

'Tis the wedding season, and it's showing, my friends Jeb and Dawn and Kevin and Brooke are getting married...not all together, but in the respective couples...and that means a lot of flying! It's cool, because for those of you who know me know that I love airports, so I'm looking forward to traveling here in a few months.