Love Is Different Than You Think

That line was penned by Caedmon's Call years ago back in the days when Derek Webb was still lonely. This was a strange week; I did get a letter back from the girl with the world's brightest smile. What I had suspected was true, the feelings she had for me in the beginning were no longer there. I'm okay, it's not a tragic situation - we were just going to see where things would go, but the disappointment I did feel was in that I had already come to love so many things about her. I guess, if nothing else, it has helped me learn to find the good in others. So I guess I wasn't the prince to sweep her away, but I do hope the right one does find her someday when the time is right.

I'm in Baltimore right now for work and last night as I drifted to sleep in my hotel room, I had a slow montage of my friends and family. I realized again how much I love them and how much all of them (you?) have shaped me. I would not be where I am today without some part of all of them: new friends, old friends, family, loves and even enemies and heartbreaks. If you're reading this – thank you. I hope to be in touch enough to have told you personally, but for those I've missed or haven't spoken to in a while – thank you.

It took a mild heartbreak to see it all again, but I wouldn't trade the wonderful family and friends I have. So, for now, love is different than I thought; for my college buddies, high school buddies, east coast family, midwest family, brother, roommate and even the daily acquaintance of the kind. I have found my love for all of them. I discovered this about a year ago, but this last week has reminded me of this all over again…and just in time. There are two more songs left to track for the album I've been talking about making for half a decade, have been writing for three years and actively working on for the last year. Soon, my album of love, written with love and about love will see the light of day.

God bless you all my friends, without you, I would not be me.

-Rod