Two Shows And I'm Still Alive...

Tonight was a great show, the second for me with this new material. Before these couple of shows, it'd been about two years since I last played out live. The first show was a few weeks ago and Beans Coffee Shop in NJ, the venue was my home stomping grounds and a good place to kick off playing live. There was a small audience and I stumbled my way through the performance, but still alive in the end. I covered about two hours alone. Tonight was different. I was nervous because I had just returned from a long work trip and was very tired and still not too confident in my performance after the last show. Top that off with this being a longer show and at a bigger venue with more bystanders and audience in general and you'll understand the source of my anxiety. What I did have by my side was Jenny and Tyler. They were great and really helped me through it. They took care of the gear and we tag teamed the show which helped keep the energy fresh. The song I was most concerned with was "Give Me A Fairytale" because of all the parts and the soaring notes that repeat throughout. Somehow, when the time came, I took a deep breath, got lost in the song and before I knew it, the song was finished. I sold a few CDs and got a front row seat for a Jenny and Tyler show...it was a great night.

I'm not sure how many more shows are in store for my future, it's strange, part of me has let go of the emotions and moved on from the place those songs were birthed from but part of me also wants to move enough units of this project to be able to do another project soon more definitive of who I am now. We'll see, that's usually all I can say: "We'll see."

Thanks to all of you that came out to Borders Books in Newark, it was great to see you smiling faces.

Goodnight friends,
-Rod